after 5 years....

last week there's so many things that i learned and also discovered..

sobrang dami na some of it hurts..well a part of it..and it sure does..

well..i have been in a relationship for almost 5years and yes i commit myself to him..but now its over..our 5years together was about to end..and hell in a very worst way..

di ko alm sknya if he's thinking of me by this time..pro aq everyday..since the day i decided to officially end this long journey with him..akala ko xa na..but i was wrong..

so wrong na lahat binigay ko..

i dont really want to broadcast my situation..but i have to do this..kc nase-stress aq..

kelangan kong ilabas to..

iam badly hurt..so hurt that i have to end this and let him go..

i still love him..pro di n kmi pwdeng maging kami..

so i think ill love him n lng till this feeling fades away..

pag iniisip kong mawawala n xa at mppunta n sa iba..

parang di ko kakayanin..

but life must go on..even without him..

everyday my heart ache's whenever i think of him..

when i woke up in the morning xa naiisip ko and it really sucks..i keep on thinking about him though i know na masasaktan lng aq..

but still our mem'ries together is still here..runnin through my head..every second every minute..even hours and days..di to biro..its really hard to be in a 5 years realationship tpos mappunta lng sa wala its really a waste of time..daming nasayang n opportunities..even our dreams together..our plans and all..its really a waste of time..

parang i wasted my 5years of my life loving him..i know u know how bad it is to love someone n di mo iniexpect na mwawala rin pla..

and the worst part of this relationship e..he cheated on me..in a very worst way..sooooooo worst n he's havin a baby with someone..i was very shock when i learned about this..i cant explain the feeling..i hate him for doing that i thought we'll grow old together..pro ndi pla i was so wrong..nakaka asar..

today im starting my new chapter of life..a journey without him..to walk alone and be a better person.. i know god will always guide me for what ever choice i make..xa lng ang nkakasama ko ngaun in my new journey his my companion in this new chapter of my life..

dame kong natutunang lesson..especially how to give importance with my family..and my life..

sbi nga nla pg my mwawala my darating..

nawala nga xa pro binigyan naman aq ni god ng mgandang work..

and im very thankful for that...

i know there's someone for me out there..

god will give it to me in time..

but for now im not ready for that..

career muna..

kaya ko to'..^_^

wat a very tiring day..//

whew..at last im home..its a very tiring day today for me..

and im very very hungry..

(haizt walkathon kc..^_^..)

anyway i came from the main office of the famous make up line in korea and singapore..

"the etude house"..ive just had my interview with the manager..she's really nice and so pretty..^_^..

but the thing is i came late..but still she considers me..thanks for that ma'am..

as of now i still dont know the result if i were hired or wat..but im hopin to get hired coz i do really want to be a part of that company..

and yeah..i have to find a job coz im not gettin any younger..

im goin to wait for their update..the manager said that they goin to update me this week..

haist..give it to me n puhleeaazzzz..@_@..

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..The Etude House..

etude house is originally from korea..

last december 20..etude house was launched in the philippines(megamall)

they will open some branches soon..

(festival mall and robinson's galleria)

well i think this year yon..

try to check their make up line..

..^_^..

they also have products 4 skin,body,hair and perfumes

and hey they got some products not only for women's they also have products 4 men..

and did u know that lee min hoo..

is the model of the etude house..^_^..

so bof fan..

try to visit etude houde u surely love the ambiance there its really girly..and their products..anyway have to go now..

just leave some comment if u have any question about this post..

..xoxo..

Etude House can be found at the ground floor of Megamall Building A, across Toy Kingdom.

yey!! 545 follwers and counting...

its so nice to see that i have 545 followers..well its not that i want to brag all about this..coz im just a first timer/a beginner in that site..and im gettin excited everytime i see that my followers are growing..actually i signed an account on twitter a couple of months ago..and b4 i dont understand wat twitter is all about..and i dont have any interest in that site b4..but now since i understand wat it is..i lyk to see my followers growing..and counting..im feelin like im a celebrity...to see people followin me..its a great feelin..

anyway..did u know that iam ranked 643,297th on twitterholic by followers and iam 894th in my location on twitterholic by followers here in philippines..

haha..its not bad..im very proud of it..

if u do have a twitter account follow me.."thegudlyf"

and il follow u back..

tnx..

what does xoxo mean??

"X" means kisses , while "O" means hugs. A sweet little greeting used to express affection (So it’s good that you’re receiving this in your IMs and emails! ).

Wondering where this all originated? Here’s some info that might clear it up:

How did "XOXO" come to mean hugs and kisses?
You’re not just referring to a poorly played game of tic-tac-toe, are you? No matter. The Oxford English Dictionary, as credited by Hugkiss.com, states the first "X-as-kiss" in literature occurred in 1901. (Where it appeared isn’t mentioned.)

The site, as well as Wikipedia, describes the X symbol as originally referring to the Christian cross (and the first letter of the Greek word for Christ, Xristos). This dates back to a mostly pre-literate era when the marking of a cross, or "X," on a document functioned like a signature.

The X became associated with the kiss because signatories used to pucker up and plant one on their X mark, as one would do to a crucifix or bible. Trivia-Library.com cites a hypothesis from The People’s Almanac, which theorizes that the X may have also functioned as a sort of early emoticon, representing a "stylized picture of two mouths touching each other."

As for that hug-of-an-O, it’s something of a mystery. Hugkiss.com says it’s a "North American custom" and cites Leo Rosten’s "The Joys of Yiddish" as saying that Jews who were illiterate preferred using an "O" when signing documents to avoid making the cross mark. Others speculate the O represents two arms held in a circle around another person.

All well and good, but just know if you wander in somewhere flashing three neon Xs on a marquee, you’re probably going to see a whole lot more than hugs or kisses.

Happy Heart's Day Everyone,,and Kung Hei Fat Choi as well..

im gonna share some beautiful story that you will surely enjoy this one is my favorite..

enjoy...^_^...

CUPID AND PSYCHE

BY; EDITH HAMILTON

There was a certain king who had three lovely daughters. The older ones had married princes of wealth and fame, but the youngest, Psyche, was so radiantly beautiful, so striking attractive that men thought she was Venus on earth. They were satisfied just to pass by her house, sing hymns in her praise and then go on about their business.

Venus soon noticed that her temples were deserted. There were no warm ashes on her alters. In anger, she summoned her winged son, Cupid. "Cupid, my temples are deserted; men no longer make sacrifices there and all because of this mere mortal called Psyche. I want you to go down and shoot her with one of your love arrows and make her fall in love with some loathsome, ill-mannered man who will treat her cruelly.

When Cupid found Psyche, he too fell in love with her beauty. Some say it was as though he had struck himself with one of his own arrows. He did not follow through with his mother's orders and returned home saying not a word.

Venus watched but no suitor came to ask for Psyche's hand in marriage. Psyche's parents became alarmed. Her parents decided to consult an oracle of Apollo for advice. Cupid had prearranged a meeting with Apollo for this consultation; "Dress the princess for her marriage and her death. Take her to yonder mountain top and leave her there alone. There her destined husband, a fearful winged serpent, stronger than the gods will come and take her away."

"Don't weep for me now, father," said Psyche," my beauty has drawn down upon me the jealousy of Heaven. Now go, knowing that I am glad the end has come."

Her parents left. Psyche sat down and as she wept and trembled, a soft breeze came through the stillness of her, the gentle breeze of Zephyr, sweetest and mildest of the winds. He lifted Psyche away and took her to a grassy meadow, soft as a bed and fragrant with flowers. She slept there. When she woke, she saw a mansion stately and beautiful as though built for a god. She walked toward the mansion hearing not a sound nor hearing a single word. The place seemed deserted. At the threshold she heard voices, invisible voices, inviting her to come inside. "We are your servants; ready to do whatever you desire."

At this new home, she was waited upon day after day hearing voices yet seeing no one. At last one evening, her dear unseen husband came. He demanded she never light an oil lamp. He could only come at night. He warned her never to try to see him. He later warned her about her two sisters. "They are coming to the hill where you had disappeared. Do not let them come," admonished Cupid. However, Psyche wanted to see someone and she loved her sisters. Psyche allowed Zephyr to carry them back and forth. They were jealous at first, then upon their second visit discovered that Psyche had never seen her husband.

Her sisters reminded Psyche of the oracles reply. "He will turn into a monster and devour you. You must kill him! Light a lamp when you are sure he is asleep and take a knife and kill him."

Psyche knew her husband had been nothing but good to her. So she determined to do one thing; to see him. But as she lit the lamp she saw no monster but ahandsome winged man. As she fell on her knees, she dropped hot oil on Cupid who awoke. He rushed out saying, "Love cannot live where there is no trust. I warned you!"

Psyche left journeying she knew not where. She ended up in a temple of Ceres and began straightening. Ceres came and advised Psyche to seek out Venus and offer herself as a humble servant. Venus first laughed but decided to give Psyche various tasks to teach her to be dutiful.

First Psyche had to separate a pile of various seeds, one grain at a time. An army of ants came in and assisted her. Then Psyche had to gather some golden wool from fearful rams. A river god spoke to Psyche telling her to wait until evening when the rams come to drink. As they walk through the thickets some of their golden wool will be caught. Her third task was to go to the source of the river Styx and fill a flash of its water. Psyche climbed a tower; she felt she would have to kill herself to go to the river. As she climbed stones in the tower spoke to her telling her how to get there. Then an eagle flew by picking the flash from her hands and dipping it in the river. Task by task Psyche had help. Venus felt sure this fourth task would be the last. Venus told Psyche, "I have lost some of my beauty tending to my wounded son. Go down to the underworld with this box and ask Persephone for some of her beauty. Bring me the box. Here are two honey cakes for Cerberus and two coins for Charon. Bring me the box."

Psyche did as she was ordered. On her way back to earth, Psyche decided that she too had lost some of her beauty. Venus surely would not miss just a particle. She opened the box and fell beside the palace. In the box was death, the trick of Venus.

Cupid flew by; finding her, he wiped the sleep of death from her eyes and put it back in the box. She was given ambrosia and nectar. She becameimmortal. Venus was happy now. Psyche would not longer turn men's eyes. They would return to her temples.

Whew..im blogging..

cant believe iam blogging..

well..its just that before i have no time for this..

but since everyday is my free time..

i used to waste my time staring at my computer and doing nothing..

as in doing nothing..

anyway i have to end this post..

btw happy heart's day everyone!! ^_^